Am i in hell
by ~Hybasha

   Am I in hell?
I feel there is nothing left to smile about
That when I wake up each morning it's another day in hell.
Everyone around me can feel the sun shine 
Not me, maybe I'm on a different plane.
Someone mentioned like 7 or 8 gates of hell
Maybe they are in a gate that is delusional
Or maybe I'm in the first and can see all those people 
In heaven and feel the anguish of being turned down 
What could I have done that was so bad? 
That repented all those who wronged me in the past.
Was the lies, slanders and violent acts they assaulted me with
Somehow a good thing and my pulling punches was the ill act.
If this is somehow true then I guess I deserve hell
Oh well I always did enjoy summer weather.