XI
Trial of Life or Death
(Day 108 on Tashoo)
(Morning)
Another nightmare. What do they mean? Why do I have them? What do they have to do
with me? I'm certain I'm having them to assist me in retrieving my lost memories but, I would
much rather have my memories return without these damnable, fearful things.
This dream starts with me once again in the company of my beautiful woman, Tyarza. She's the
one with blue-blond hair, yellow-in-blue eyes, and very straight teeth. She has lion yellow skin
and slightly darker lips that give her such an exotic, almost Polynesian, look that I can't help but
find myself attracted to this woman. I now know the woman is Kerga Tyarza. She's looking at
me and smiling coquettishly. We're sitting on a blue and gold checkered blanket next to a
slow-moving stream. There's a picnic basket and wine jug on the blanket. We're talking, but I
can’t hear what we're saying. Dream Tyarza smiles at me and her cheeks darken as she looks
away. The sky is as beautiful and clear as I've ever seen it. Hardly a cloud can be seen in the sky,
even the horizon is clear. The sun, a yellow-white circle in the sky, is warm and relaxing. I can
feel myself smiling at the woman and she reaches for my hand to hold it in hers. She looks at me
with love in her eyes through long lashes on half-closed lids.
Suddenly, as has happened in every one of my previous nightmares, the scene changes. The sky
is darkened by clouds. The air becomes cooler and fog starts rolling in. Tyarza is enveloped by
the fog. She's fading from my sight. But, I see her mouth form words. “Mvilu, please, I am here
for you. Come to me. I am waiting for you. I will wait for you until you are ready. Do not worry
about other things I may say. Believe me. I will be here.”
As she fades away, the fog starts to clear and, as the fog clears, I find myself in a strange place. I
see nothing but long gray corridors? I find myself in the company of one of the dinosaurians I
had seen in previous dreams. It is the male, Dreydos. He seems to be showing me the inside of a
spaceship. Spaceship? How do I know what that is? I see things that, for some strange reason,
raise my curiosity. Dreydos looks like a painting of a creature I had seen many years before
called a Deinonychus, except for the coloration, the fine fur that covers it, and the length of the