Grief By: Kamal “WaLdO” Ali Interlude.. Sort of... It was a awkward night in Perrin park as I was talking to my “Little buddy”. He was wearing his famous hoodie that covered his face making him a totally new person. Of course for me, I just bought a new, purple toboggan. He managed to barely mumble. “Huh, I didn't quite get that, you know I have short attention span.” “Maybe I should have spoke to someone else.. like shel...” “She Has no understanding right now, I know your depressed |screams loudly| And that give you no right to be mad at me, or anyone else for that matter.” I still couldn't make out his facial, as his face was darkened by the shadowing effect of his hood. “My bad little bud, I got a bit angry there.. |small blush| - So, will you tell me what's wrong? I betcha I can take it.” “Always expect the unexpected Kamal...” “Spew it out already!” “well... e-erm, |Whisper| I'm gay.” Chapter 1 Home Oh, sweet.. sweet Louisville. The city I grew up in. I haven't been here in eight years, when I started going to college getting a masters in Chemistry and playing for the IUS college soccer team and competed in the GLVS Conference. |thought bubble| This place has changed... A Lot.. a new bridge, a whole new center for bands, sports, etc. wow. We have really surpassed the bar. I had to find my way to my old apartment, which my friend Wes was kind enough to let me leave it without rent over piling on me. |Wes works at the apartment complex..| After 30 minutes of morning traffic, I find the normal back roads I always used to go to school that connected directly in front of my apartment. After careful driving, I got through the back road and into the small area I love to call home. |Before we move on, lets introduce the characters!| Wes – He is an energetic man child who is tall and has a belly on him to show you he played football in his time. He is a very nice man on the inside and he just doesn't show it a lot. Denies being gay, but he has the nerve to act faggish from time to time. Jordan – Well, Jordan is my best friend since 3rd grade. He is a tall tiger, (even taller than Wes, Jordan was 6'4” at 13 years old,) but he can have a warm heart from time to time. He is, although, short-tempered and has a lack of self-control. But those features I don't mind, he is still my friend non-the-less. (haha, he hates the subject of his personality.. he says he's straight though.) Shelby – oh my gosh, she was like my best friend when we were little in eighth grade! I missed her a lot while I was gone! Anyways, She is an emotional wolf, but hides her “Emo-ness” easily. She always wears a hoodie. She was an amazing friend then, so why not now? Bisexual very openly to everyone. Devon – Another one of my “besties” in middle school. She is a cheetah with ambitions, “Straight to da MAX!” I coined that catch phrase for her when she finally convinced me she wasn't bisexual. Sarah – My chubby little bisexual girl who kind of creeped me out, but was a good friend all the time. She always made me laugh and get me out of my always depressed mood. Hehe if I was straight I might've dated her! And then there is me. A husky who is very kind and loving. I have gray fur all around so I look like a coyote when I'm not properly cleaned up, and I look like a wolf when I am.. I'm openly gay to all my friends and some other people I know of. I'm not very strong nor tall nor fat, I am a very scrawny boy, but can protect myself in “sticky” situations. And that is the gang, now, where were we? I saw my apartment number “14” engraved in stone above the door outside. I busted through the broken door with my very full hands, walked down the hall and dropped all my stuff to get one tiny key. I fit it through the lock and opened to the smell of.. well nothing really. Im just used to the natural apartment stench I guess. After I got everything I had inside and I sat down for awhile, I wanted to go meet everyone at the normal meet up place for saturday's. Sadly this wasn't until 7 Pm. It was 7:30 Am. I had a lot of time to kill sleeping and unpacking. Mainly sleeping! Chapter 2 Well, Hi there! BAH! I overslept! Haha, just kiddin' I overslept to procrastinate unpacking. It was 6:00pm and that's where I wanted it. I wore my new toboggan, which was yellow, to match my outfit. Leaving early to go see my school once more. I didn't want to drive today so that's another reason I left early. Cutting through the back roads took 15 minutes and I finally reached the school. It was empty, but that can be normal on a Saturday afternoon.. Anyways, I headed down for the next 15 blocks. By the time I reached the St. Matthews Mall, it was around 7:15, so I was early, good. Everyone is always late to the mall, while I'm here WAY before everyone else. They don't know what to expect. They will walk into the food court and jaw drop and hug me! But what if this isn't the hang out spot anymore, what if I don't know where everyone is now, what if!?!? KAMAL!!!!!! I heard a freakish shrill calling out for my name. I looked at my clock right before it and it said 7:22, no way it could be any of the girls. I turned around to see my old pals after all! We all hugged and exchanged I missed you's and I'm so happy's. We finally sat at our table that we've been sitting in since 7th grade. And now were 26 and it's still here. Wow. “Haha, good to see you guys here! I was worried I might've been TOO early this time” “oh Kamal, we started coming early to remember you, but i'd never expect to see you now! How did you do in the GLSV?” “Aww thanks Shelby, and we made it to semi-finals before being disqualified for a player on our team caught with steroids.” “shucks, that's terrible. All well were all together as a family again!” It was weird, there was an empty seat next to Wesley and Jordan. I kept staring at it, and everyone whispered to everyone except me. “Erm, someone mind telling me what's going on?” Then he appeared. A red fox with a black tipped tail, and a soft black hoodie, in which covered his head. He got to our table, sat down and took it off. He was a beautiful fox, who seemed to be a very energetic kid, he was scrawny like me, but he didnt seem strong, but as I always say, never judge a book by it's cover! Everything fell silent after he sat down. The stranger said “H-hey, who's the new kid?” “The New Kid Is actually the founder of this table. Now who may you be?” “No way, your Kamal! Haha, they were right, you do look like a wolf and not a husky.” “My question was never answered,” I sayed more calmly, “What would your name be?” “Oh, haha im Scott. Nice to finally meet you Kamal!” He seemed like a very nice guy, so I didn't mind him sitting there. We all waited until 7:45, tradition, until we all got our own food. I got General tsau chicken from China taste. Jordan got a chicken sandwich from Chick-fil-A. Wes got a Whopper from Burger King. Shelby picked off of Wes's fries like usual. Devon had nachos and cheese from tumbleweed. Sarah stole some of my chicken! Just kidding, I let her. Scott had what I had today, because he said it looked awesome! Well after we were stuffed Scott told me about how he came into the group. Chapter 3 Never Expect the Unexpected (This is talking through Scott's point of view, take this into note.) The way I joined this group is, well.. Heh it's kind of funny now that I think of it. But on a serious note, it was a very hard time for me. I came here to the mall because I was stressed out about something I don't like to talk about. But I was crying softly.. “HA! You were crying like a baby dude! Erm.. no offense though..” “No offense Jordan, so anyways..” I was crying at a single table when Devon and Sarah came up to me. They asked me a few questions about why I was crying. All I could say was that I was stressed about something that happened within my life a few years back. But they got me cheered up somehow, and now here I am! Almost like it was magic.. “Wow Scott, that is, pretty sad, yet amazing. Heh, you should tell me more about yourself.” “I ain't gonna go to far with my life, I only just met you!” “But that doesn't mean were not friends already! I founded this group and I feel everyone in the group is family. So come on Scott, please!” “You beg like a dog, now I know you're a husky. Fine, I will talk about SOME of my life. I haven't even told everyone else everything.. so let's start young.” Well, I am an only child to a amazing mom and dad who loved me my whole life. They didn't over spoil me, so I didn't turn out a stubborn asshole like many only children. I never had troubles with my life at all with my family. I was a scrawny boy growing up, and now I'm actually pretty strong! Right now im 5'7” so im pretty short, and I weigh 160 pounds. I just love sports and wanted to be a pro-baseball player before I got a full time job as a UPS employee. I also have a summer part time job as a life-guard. So I'm good financially. I'm a very caring person and don't mind helping others in need. And that is the me you need to know for now. “Wow Scott, you seem like a very nice kid! Ha you can fit well into this group!” “I ain't no kid Kamal, I AM a grown man ya' know!” “It's just my expression to new people!” “well I don't mind it, as long as it goes away sometime soon.” “Will do, [I]Little buddy[/I]!” | playful growl | “Haha, so Kamal, wanna tell me some bout yourself? “not a problem, Scott!” “I'm a amazing friend, just to start off, and I grew up with 3 brothers and one sister, me being the oldest. It was tough as a child, we lived on a 50,000 dollar income.. yea we would not have struggled if my Mom didn't leave us. Our house was a major wreck all the time and we always fought. Anyways, after my childhood, I took college as soon as possible. I Majored in Chemistry and got my masters at IUS. I also played for their college soccer team and competed in the GLSV but got disqualified for having a player with steroids. But now I'm looking for a job because I literally just came here today..” “Hope I ain't interrupting, but how about hobbies and music?” “Well, I like soccer of course. I also love to draw and hang out with my friends. I like almost all music but my favorite band would be Attack attack!” “You seem very nice also, by the tone of your voice. Your a calm pup and I like that. Seems like we can be friends. By the way, I like Attack attack! Also, just saying..” “Yesss!!!” Chapter 4 Welcome to the Family So after chatting it up, I took out my phone and scrolled through it like anyone would do with a smart phone. I decided to play the song, “Welcome to the Family by Avenged Sevenfold.” ironically Scott knew the band and became a table tapper to the drums. We all were head banging to the song by the time it ended. “Ha, seems like we have such a common ground Scott!” “I know right? It is so hard finding someone that likes what you like around here.” “I know the feeling.” Scott stared at me blankly, and I looked away to not make him feel weird. Finally after everyone exchanged looks, they decided to go. “Ha, sorry hun, we have to go, all of us have a project we were working on.” (wink) “Awesome, well I'm going to stay here Sarah, maybe I'll see someone else here that I haven’t seen in awhile.” indeed was I right, and I just didn't notice. “aight then ya wolf, have fun!” “Thanks, you too, BYE GUYS!” I could tell Scott was gay, but he doesn't want to say it.. we will just have to wait and see don't we? Anywho.. I was finally alone to just sit there and think.. but I didn't really want to think of him right then and there. I missed him [i]too[/i] much and I didn't want to cry. I started walking around to find Hot Topic, only to find it replaced with Nirvana.. “Oh that's great..” I thought in my head. Although I saw a new rave shop, “Dj Shop n' Drop.” Such a corny name, yet I wanted to go in to see what was in there... “WOLFIE!!” Yea, I know I'm not a wolf, but only one person called ME that. It couldn't be.. “No fucking way.. Brugi!?!?” I was to surprised. The one who Left me is here now? “Yep, its me you silly! How are you? I've missed you so much!” “I guess I'm okay, I was just thinking about you to be honest.” “haha -blush- so how was college?” “surely as hell not fun, well at least I'm done and got my master's in Chemistry.” “Definitely sounds boring.. so what are you doing here alone at this hour?” I need to find out why he is here. Does he want me back? HE broke up with ME.. I'm confused. “I was just hanging out here with my friends.. they just left a few minutes ago.” “Aww, so your alone now? Right?” “yes... why?” “I had somethings I need to talk to you about..” Chapter 5 Wait.. You want to what? Brugi was my Ex in Arizona when I lived there. We became together in highschool and he broke up with me after senior year because he didn't think our relationship was serious. He went out with someone else at the time, and his name was Axen, I didn't mind. I'm not the jealous type when it comes to that stuff. So we were still friends and when he introduced me to Axen I was happy for the two of them. Anyways, he was 6'2 and has been since he was 14. He weighs a good 190 but was pretty skinny. He was a black and blue fox with amazing abs that made good eye candy. The blue of him were markings going all the way across his body, and one mark on his elbow that resembles the “blue rose.” he was a Dj, so he made some pretty amazing songs! Anywho, back to the point.. “Well Brugi, lets go sit at the food court, and you can..” “ No, I need it to be personal, in private. Lets go to your place.” “It isn't even fixed up yet, I just got home today.” “It doesn't matter, It doesn't change the fact that it's a private area we can chat.” I finally decided to let him go to my apartment and it took about an hour to get back there. We didn't talk the whole way there, we just exchanged poker faces. We finally made it to apartment 14, and we walked inside. “What's that smell, Kamal?” “Apartment smell, you get used to it after awhile.” He closed the door. Locked it, Dead bolt, and chain lock. That kind of scared me a bit, but I knew he was harmless. “So Brugi, what's up?” “E-erm, I need help with my homework..” “What do you mean? You have nothing with you. What's wrong, just tell me.” “Axen, He is.. umm..” “What did he do to you!? DID HE HURT YOU?” “technically, yes. He hurt me on an emotional level. And he left me in a bad way.” “Oh my gosh, you don't mean..” “Yes, he is dead now. He died of Heart failure after doing his morning jog. Apparently he slept on a major artery and it cause a clot to form, thus killing him.” He started sobbing and sniffling. Then it turned into crying. I went up to him and hugged him for a good few minutes, but it felt like hours for both of us. He stopped crying, “I don't know what to do, this is all a major wreck for me and I have no one else to go to but you Kamal.” He was desperate, he really needed someone to comfort him. “Ya know, you can stay with me for awhile if you want. I don't like it when your like this.” “I know you don't, but I can't help myself. And I guess I can stay here for a bit. I need to get my mind straight.” “Well don't make it so straight your not gay anymore!” I said jokingly to cheer him up. He chuckled a bit. We were laying in my bed, him shaking slightly as I held him. I could tell he was a nervous wreck. I held him close and I felt his fur settle down a little bit. I stroked his head to comfort him some more. He looked into my Storm cloud gray eyes as I stared into his. He finally muttered words I will never forget. And those words changed my life forever. “I'm Sorry.” Chapter 6 Hang on, Repeat that please. “Wait, what did you say?” “I said I was sorry.” “Sorry for what? I don't remember you hurting me...” I finally had the idea.. “Oh, umm..” I couldn't respond, he felt me tense up, and I was ready to just yell at him, and tell him he didn't want me then, so why did he want me now? But that's not what happened, instead. I forgave him back. “If you don't forgive me, that's fine, but no matter what I still love you, and if you don't believe..” “I forgive you.” “It's okay, I knew you probably wouldn't.. wait, WHAT!?!?” “Yes, I forgive you. And I want to turn around from our childish relationship to a more serious one. So let me do this formally. Meet me at the mall tomorrow at Dj Shop n' Drop, you will see why.” “um, okay. But why th..” “Shh..” I hushed him by putting my paw next to his mouth, “You need some rest, you look really tired. He fell asleep and thought I did too. Yep, he was wrong. Oh so wrong. I slipped out of bed when he started snoring slightly, and headed out. (Mumble) “ugh, good morning Kamal.. Kamal??” (flashback) “Meet me at the mall tomorrow at Dj Shop n' Drop, You will see why.” “well I guess that bastard wants me to find him” “Just let me eat breakfast first.. what, a note?” 'Now Brugi, you don't want to eat when you have to find me now do you?' “I guess not..” I saw him walking in the mall, so I ran to Dj Shop n' Drop for his special suprise. “Kamal, Where are you!?” 'Damn! That Bitch stood me up! When I see him I 'oughta..' “Mornin' Sleeping beauty!” “Kamal?” as I raised the doors to Dj Shop n' Drop, it showed him the biggest surprise he has ever gotten. I played his favorite song, which was Sexual Man Chocolate by Attack attack! He jaw dropped mostly at what he saw. I bought the whole store and turned it into a club, which had the basics. A dance floor, rental poi balls, Decks, Dj Stand and lighting. “I-I'm baffled! I can't even.. I'm speechless!” “Thought you might have been, I even named the place after your boyfriend, as a dedication. Axen's Rave Den.” He came up to the stand and gave me a big hug, and then shyly gave me a nice kiss on the cheek. I blushed a very bright red, then told him to find some people and bring them here. He kindly agreed, and by the time 5 minutes was over, he brought a good 25 people with him. We were all either shuffling or making our own dances up to “part rock anthem – LMFAO.” I signaled Brugi to get up here, and he jogged slowly up here and he saw my hands behind my back as I stopped the music. “Everyone, may I have your attention.” “What is it Kamal?” “Brugi, it has been awhile and I don't know if this is right. But, will you be my boyfriend?” “YES!” He hugged me and kissed me passionately. Everyone aww'ed said that was sweet. I handed him the Roses I picked myself. And he took them and kissed me again. “Okay guys, who's ready for some Scantraxx Rootz!?” Chapter 7 None of dat Techno Sheit in da south “SCOTT!” “Yea, Dad?” “What did I say 'bout taking care of yer yunger sistur?” “Sorry, she ran away from me and I could'nt find her!” “Now don't get them American Faggish Accents with me you dumb boy!” (Mumble) “Maybe you shouldn't be such a bit..” “TAG YOUR IT!” “Get back here before you get me in more trouble!” WHAM! “Some un's pushin der limits aren't they?” I just ran outside to ignore the shit that my family engraved into my soul. I lived In Nashville, Tennessee, where it is SO amazing, but I don't get to do anything fun. So Don't complain about your little hole, mine Is just as bad. So anyways, when I wanna get out of the house, I Go to the short Valley about a mile away from my house. There is a hidden cave with a giant stone that is pretty easy to move. I have a whole hideout with electricity flowing and the works. I could live there for over 3 months if I wanted to, but I went only one day at a time, with non-perishable caned foods. And always stocked it up with mountain dew White Out. I went down there today, fixed myself some Chili Mac and had myself a Dr. Pepper.. I was 17 here and I had nothing in my life, except for school, I was lucky for even that. I was still closeted sadly, which i hated, but it was for my own protection at school. Anyways, back to my hideout. As i sipped some of my soda, i heard a random knock on the door, an unfamiliar one. Yet my naive nature made me yell, "COME IN!!" Which was the last thing i wanted. It was my best friend Ryan who knew about the location. I was relieved to see his artic fur that matched no other in the city. The fox was swaying his purple hair out of his eyes as he said hello. "Hey! Come in." He seemed depressed, well more worried, but defiately depressed. "Scott, I have something i REALLY need to say.." "Sure Ryan, anything." I was kind of nervous of what he had to say to me, But I was there for anything. "I can't come to words on how to say it.. but I'm.." "Gay? Heh I don't mind" "You dont?!?! Wait, How did you know what i was going to say?" "Well, because I'm gay too." We both sat there in silence, as I made a move on the fox. I went in to give him a hug, but then he stole a kiss. Just right off my lips. After the blushing, We both lay on the one bed I had brought in not to long ago, and Cuddled for the whole night.